Part 1

How many times have my wishes

and my dreams and my prayers for you

hidden beneath my breath?

How many times have I looked at you,

Heart in my throat,

hands in my pockets,

a smile on my face, just wanting to say,

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

Friends

Friends

- Friends are a bunch of people that we are comfortable taking advantage of

- Friends are a bunch of people that have high tolerance of our crappy attitude

- Friends are a bunch of people that we can treat like shit but still ended up forgiving us

- Friends are a bunch of people that are comfortable taking advantage of us

- Friendship is a mutual understanding where we are allowed to screw each other without feeling guilty abt it.

Hope

Dont u hate this word?. Plain and simple word that could make your life spinning out of nowhere. Some said hope is overrated. Some said its essential to our life is we want to feel like human. But who has the right to say that? Everyone should be allowed to paint their own canvas, right?

It can exists in several form. From career wise scenario up to personal. But as bitter one can be sometimes or how tight his defensive wall is covering him, it still can creep out of nowhere and stays a float in your brain. Stimulating some ideas or scenario along the way

Would it be nice if we somehow can distinguish this hope from reality. There's too much suffering and dissapointment in the world because of this. Sometimes, I think life would be damn easier if its only binary or White and black. We see something, anylzed it and felt it for that particaular time. If somehow we not its not true, we just ditch it and go along with our life.

But rather unfortunately is not that simple. Sometimes, looking at some simple minded people , I felt envious because of their stupidity. And what am i writing today?. I have no idea what. Im just ranting out ramdomnnly. Arent life random?

Here I Love You

Here I love you. 
In the dark pines the wind disentangles itself.
The moon glows like phosphorous on the vagrant waters.
Days, all one kind, go chasing each other.

The snow unfurls in dancing figures.
A silver gull slips down from the west.
Sometimes a sail. High, high stars. 
Oh the black cross of a ship.
Alone.

Sometimes I get up early and even my soul is wet.
Far away the sea sounds and resounds.
This is a port.

Here I love you.
Here I love you and the horizon hides you in vain.
I love you still among these cold things.
Sometimes my kisses go on those heavy vessels
that cross the sea towards no arrival.
I see myself forgotten like those old anchors.

The piers sadden when the afternoon moors there.
My life grows tired, hungry to no purpose.
I love what I do not have. You are so far.
My loathing wrestles with the slow twilights.
But night comes and starts to sing to me.

The moon turns its clockwork dream.
The biggest stars look at me with your eyes.
And as I love you, the pines in the wind
want to sing your name with their leaves of wire.

Pablo Neruda ( 1904-1973, written in 1959 )

Memento for a "friend" p/s friend is overrated

Shit things do happened eh?... 

I mean, I got this perfectly flawed friend that is damn unique to his definition. Im pretty sure Im not gonna find anybody that stupid and honest in my entire life. Sometimes I do wonder what i did wrong.... Iskkk

But my man... life goes on. Be whatever shit u wanna be in your life.

Some day ure gonna find it... at the very least u expected it.

Take my word for it

Free flow...

Arghhhhhhhhhh....

Damn my nose!!!

After a couple of years..

Testing..
Testing 1,2,3

Selamat ( fill in the blanks )...

Wah.. Its been so long since I posted anything here. There are things I wanna write, such as my "experiance" going to the company get together in Langkawi. Tapi macam, words cannot describe it la. Actually its me yang malas nak bercerita.

You would'nt believe what happened last night. I cant sleep, maybe due to excessive sleeping during the day. Cuti 2 hari la for puasa. Not much you can do except sleep rite?. I was awake almost the whole night yesterday. I think its about 3 a.m in the morning when that happened.

At first, you can see, a glimpse of light coming from high powered torchlight zooming into your room, passing thru the curtains. I almost jump from my bed, my heart started to pound and I was struck with fear. "Eh, sape la pulak yg suluh2 bilik aku malam2 ni..."

And then... BANG!!!!!, there was this loud sound coming from outside the fence and I immediately jump from my bed and rushed to the window. At that very moment, I can hear the shrieking sound of an animal in agony. Dengar elok2.... cis! cis! cis!!.. rupanya, ada orang datang memburu babi di taman aku malam2. Aduhai... protest sungguh aku

Dah la tak boleh nak tido, dengar pulak dengar bunyi khinzir nak mampus. *Sigh*. This is going to be a long day for me. Mata pun dah merah skang.

Selamat Berpuasa to all, Jangan ponteng terawih weh... hehhe

Ripley's Believe or Not!!

Hmmmm.. macam pelik je baca yesterday's news. The one where the son "accidently" stab his mum to death. Kesian la pada Sultan patik lately, dah la kena bang kaw2 pasal Malaysia punya latest football ranking, then facing pulak this kind of news.

Tapi tak pelik ker for the kid to be burried in the Makam Perkebumian Diraja eh?. Takkan la terlampau sayang sehingga membunuh?. Apa2 pun, Al-Fatihah kepada kerabat di Raja Pahang. Hope this incident can make them stronger.

Bodoh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Arghhh fuck it la. The appeal process does not go well to my club, Juventus. I mean what the hell man?. 2 prior club that was supposed to be in Serie B was reinstated back to Serie A!!!!!!!!. Bloody corrupted Italians!!.

This is the verdict after the appeal.

Juventus
Relegated to Serie B with 17 point penalty
Stripped of last two titles
Handed three-match home ban

Fiorentina
Returned to Serie A with 19 point penalty
Deducted 30 points from their 2005-06 tally
Handed three-match home ban

Lazio
Returned to Serie A with 11 point penalty
Deducted 30 points from their 2005-06 tally
Handed two-match home ban

Milan
Deducted 30 points from their 2005-06 tally
Remain in Serie A with an eight point penalty
Handed one-match home ban

What really happened to the sentences

Juventus
Champions in the last 2 scudettos.
Last season accumulated 91 points.
Treviso who was relegated, accumulated 21 points.
So, in order to be relegated to SerieB, Juve must be deducted by 70 points!!!
Start in SerieB with 17 point penalty.
Total points deduction = 87 points = 29 wins

Fiorentina
4^th in last season SerieA.
Last season accumulated 74 points.
Deduct with 30 points for last year season.
Start in SerieA with 19 points penalty.
Total points deduction = 49 points = 16 wins

Lazio
6^th in last season’s Serie A.
Last season accumulated 62 points.
Deduct with 30 points for last year season.
Start in SerieA with 11 points penalty.
Total points deduction = 41 points = 13 wins

Milan
2nd in last season’s Serie A.
Last season accumulated 88 points.
Deduct with 30 points for last year season.
Start in SerieA with 8 points penalty.
Total points deduction = 38 points = 12 wins

What the hell was that huh?. Dah la kena stripped the last 2 scudetto, kena plak hukuman paling teruk. Gila2 punya beza points kena deduct. Pissed off sungguh aku la mcm ni. I don’t mind the consequences.. really. If you make a mistake or your former employee, you should be ready to accept the consequences.

Tapi ini, its like they purposely trying to hurt Juventus alone where there are roughly 4,6 teams that involved in that scandal. Fuck it laaaaa.. Sah2 la x der live telecast this season. #@@$%^&&**))&^%$^%^

Wish List

Lucky me...

People keep saying, “Maturity comes with ages”. I don’t know about that, since today is my 27^th birthday and I don’t feel more matured than this. Is that a bad sign?. *Sigh*. I hope not! Heheheh

July has been so dear to me so far. I mean how can I argue more?. Italy has been crowned Campione del mondo (its Champion of the World btw), Federer finally banished the ghost of Nadal and of course my car’s project is finished minus some minor arrangement that can be done later.

But of course, there is something that happened that broke my heart quite badly. My beloved football club, Juventus has been thrown out of Serie A into Serie B with minus 30 point. Haiyah… ini la jadinya kalau u messed something right?. I wonder whether the entire super star player would actually stay with them for at least 1 more season.

27 is quite critical time kan?. Aduhh worried sungguh aku dgn my situation so far. My career still suxxx big time, altho’ the payment is good but its a contract job. Aku btul2 kena pass this CCNA exam or else I’m gonna stuck with this work with no career development prospect. Most of my buddies already tying the knot, and the strange thing is I don’t feel worried at all. Oh my. No pressure or whatsoever from anybody but except the parent lah. Tapi so far boleh mengelak2 lagi. Hahahhaha.

I spent my 1 week off by traveling. Wah banyak sungguh wang habis apabila anda ke sana sini eh?. Dah la penat drived, nasib baik ada 2 ekor sengal lagi yang follow sekali. Kalau tak, mmg dah tido dah aku somewhere. Mana taknya, last Sunday dah gerak ke K Terengganu because I have this regional meeting there on Monday. Aiyah… tak habis2 meeting kt K Trg… boring tul aku, org trg pun boring asyik meeting kt sana. Nasib baik la leh spent skit masa dgn all the babes and stud from my region tuh. Tgk bola final WC pun cam x berapa meriah. But I dont care because Italy is winning. Tak sia2 gue duduk atas kerusi rotan kt kedai tuh dari kul 12 sampai 5 pagi!!!. The best part is, the guy from HQ is rooting for France and I'm having the best time talking with him the next morning!! He even kept giving example using Zidane's name… hahahhaha. Pity him tho’.

Tuesday went back to Pahang, back to home precisely and then go straight to KL that evening. Dah la my car buat perangai dekat Lanchang, suka hati dia je nak tutup lampu low beam. Menggelabah sekejap, rupa2nya dia saje nak suruh aku kena maki ngan driver2 lain. Yer la, all the way pakai high beam, mana tak 2,3 bakul aku kena maki. But Alhamdulillah, seme selamat sampai. Thursday, back to home, attend 1 small event at my sister’s school. Then off to Kuantan for Kem Pemulihan CCNA. Hahahaha. Sempat la study skit2 tp mostly the time spend by playing the damn card!!!. Cis, nyesal btul aku main card tuh.

Now my car is done, the next objective would be driving the car at the Sepang International Circuit. I just hope when the time come, I’ll be able to make it. Aduh, lambat sungguh benda ni nak berlaku. Demn!, I really hope I can skip work today. Celebrate your birthday by sleeping is such an awesome way… right???

Final!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We're going to the final!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh yeah!!!!!!!
The german is outttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thank you Grosso and my hero Alessandro Del Piero!!!

5 more hours

Adolf Hitler vs Benito Mussolini
Nazi vs Mafia

Whats this four infamous name got to do with tonight's World Cup semi final?. All of them represent the same county that would be playing tonight.

German vs Italy

Oh my, this is nervewrecking. Got to watch the game at 3 AM but still thinking on how to survive tomorrow's work. Baik tido dulu kut?. And then bangun balik at 3. kalau bangun la, kalau tak selamba je la tido sampai esok pagi and check my hp for the sms regarding the result.
Dah lama jadi fan Italy, the last time I feel this excited, emmm bila eh, masa Euro 2000. Damn!! Kalah ngan France final pulak dah. The only time yang terasa nak celebrate at international level.
from history point of view, Italy should win tonight. Why you might ask?, because THE GERMANS NEVER BEAR THE ITALIANS IN ANY WORLD CUP MATCHES!. Not bad eh?.. heheh.
I'm not usually care about all this history thinggy, but for now, I was hoping the history will repeat itself just like in WC82 where the Italians beat Germany to lift the World Cup.
I'm hoping, by tomorrow. I'm going to celebrate about stepping into the WC2006. Nevertheless, this is a good distraction from the Italian's domestic football which is glooming with bribery and match fixing. Lets hope Juve wont be punish that bad.


(Aku yang menggelabah sorang2 dalam bilik sbb tak leh nak tido.. tapi sempat posing lagi tuh. hehehe)
Forza Italia!!!

Microsoft Windows Genuine Advantage Notifications

Something ilmiah. You should know by now about this genuine notification that Microsoft imposed on the user before installing any critical update such as IE 7.0 and all?. Well, the great thing about it, Microsoft has already released a way to disable or uninstall it.

I dont have the time to test it on my pc yet, since mine was installed using genuine Windows copy. hehehhehe. But to any of you that using the fake version and getting annoyed by the thing that keep popped up down below, here is the solution

Disable WGA Notifications

1.	Log on to the computer by using an account that has administrative permissions.
2.	Make sure that the WGA Notifications version that exists on the computer is a pilot version. The version format for the pilot version is 1.5.0532.x. In this case, you can uninstall versions 527-532 only. For example, you can uninstall versions that range from 1.5.0527.0 to 1.5.0532.2. To find the WGA Notifications version, follow these steps: a. Click Start, and then click Control Panel. b. Double-click Add or Remove Programs, locate and then click Windows XP - Software, then click Windows Genuine Advantage Notifications, and then click Click here for support information. c. In the Support Info dialog box, verify the version number, and then click Close.
3.	Rename the following files by changing the extension to .old: • Rename %Windir%\system32\WgaLogon.dll to %Windir%\system32\WgaLogon.old • Rename %Windir%\system32\WgaTray.exe to %Windir%\system32\WgaTray.old
4.	Restart the computer.

Manually uninstall WGA Notifications

1.	Log on to the computer by using an account that has administrative permissions.
2.	Make sure that the WGA Notifications version that exists on the computer is a pilot version. The version format for the pilot version is 1.5.0532.x. In this case, you can uninstall versions 527-532 only. For example, you can uninstall versions that range from 1.5.0527.0 to 1.5.0532.2. To find the WGA Notifications version, follow these steps: a. Click Start, and then click Control Panel. b. Double-click Add or uninstall Programs, locate and then click Windows Genuine Advantage Notifications, and then click Click here for support information. c. In the Support Info dialog box, verify the version number, and then click Close.
3.	Rename the following files by changing the extension to .old: • Rename %Windir%\system32\WgaLogon.dll to %Windir%\system32\WgaLogon.old • Rename %Windir%\system32\WgaTray.exe to %Windir%\system32\WgaTray.old
4.	Restart the computer.
5.	Unregister LegitCheckControl.dll by using Regsvr32. To do this, follow these steps: a. Click Start, click Run, type cmd, and then click OK. b. At the command prompt, type the following, and then press ENTER: Regsvr32 %Windir%\system32\LegitCheckControl.dll /u
6.	Restart the computer.
7.	Click Start, click Run, type cmd, and then click OK.
8.	At the command prompt, delete the following files by typing the Del command. Press ENTER after you type each command. • Del %Windir%\system32\wgalogon.old • Del %Windir%\system32\WgaTray.old • Del %Windir%\system32\LegitCheckControl.dll
9.	At the command prompt, type regedit.
10.	Locate and then right-click the following registry subkeys. Click Delete after you locate each subkey. • HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\SOFTWARE\Microsoft\WindowsNT\ CurrentVersion\Winlogon\Notify\WgaLogon • HKEY_LOCAL_MACHINE\SOFTWARE\Microsoft\Windows \CurrentVersion\Uninstall\WgaNotify

For complete version, please dont hesitate to visit here

Something cool

This is not something that you witnessed everyday...
Terkejut aku tgk, masa singgah isi minyak on the way nak balik kerja.
Tak sangka plak ada taxi service untuk gajah. Hahahahah
Habis penuh petrol station tuh ngan orang... tapi cam seme org usha dari jauh jer. Takut kut? or the driver tak kasik... itu yg terpaksa amik gambar dari jauh jer.. Kalau gajah tuh mengamuk.. kan payah. heheheh

The Cup of Life

I don’t know about you guys, but I’m getting sick of hearing the so called football expert or the pundits talking and commenting about the matches. But the most annoying part is, when these dickhead started to comment on some of the ref’s decision on the matches.

This is a bunch of underachievers who accomplish nothing but have the guts to comment on others?. You sat in the studio, air-conditioned and drink some more. Adil ker nak komen something AFTER you watched it a thousands times from all possible angle and later announced it, “its absolute mistake by the ref for doing that”. Is that crazy or what??.

They have probably 0.004 second to decide something BASED on what they SAW from the POSITION they stand at THAT time. The soaring voice in the stadium and the pressure from the players does not make it easier for them. Sometimes eyes played trick to us. In one angle it looks different and from other angle, it looks different. So, to blame the ref for making some debatable call is unwelcome for I think.

If you wanna blame someone, blame the person at the helm of the FIFA for not allowing the introduction of video reply like the NFL. *Sigh*. Pity bila tournament yang baik macam ni akan dikenang kerana some decision made by the ref not by the quality of the matches like the trashing of the Serbs by the Argies. That was pure genius!!.

Do give the men in black some credit you know. After all, they are the real fans. Because most of them indeed are respected figure in their working field and they want to involved more in the sport by being the ref. Not like us… komplen je kerja, macam la bagus sgt main bola sorang2.

"Friendship poem"

This is a good one. Just need to share.

FRIENDSHIP...



Are you tired of all those sissy "friendship" poems that always sound good but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship:

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused - I will use little words.

7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

World Cup

I forgot...
its already World Cup season...
I hope Italy will win it... but we all know Brazil will come strolling and take the cup for the record 6th time..
Happy World Cuping

Life is a bitch and I love her so much....

Whats the best way of spending your week off?.

1. Lepaking in some islands or beautiful beaches
2. spend some quality time at home
3. get all the unfinished workload done before you get back to work.

This is what are my options before I get 1 week off. Kinda excited because looking forward for this break to recharge my batteries. Did'nt expect I would be presented with this option.

• Laying in bed for 4 days and sleep because of fever. *sigh*

Come to think of it. I rather happy with the limited choice that I had. I rarely got sick, but when the time come, it usually takes me a longer time to recover.

And speaking of choices.. its not like I can do my 1st option on my list. I managed to finish my gaji in the 1st week by buying myself this thing.... for my baby. *awesome*